I know I shouldn't told you guys but you have to know about my past life and what happened.
back in 2008 when my Auntie Julie was a live she was having a depression, she phone my mum when she was still living in england with me and my family. my Dad didn't want my mum to worried about her sister. a few days later when I got back from school my had sad news that my aunt committed suicide. I was really shocked when she died she took drugs and died. after for a while my parents got into an argument I wanted to help but I would just be in their way. my mum's depression was dragging her down with guilt, on the few day she was sorting out some boxes and I thought she was just getting rid of them. but when I got back from my dentist thanks to my uncle that pick me up from school I was confused why my uncle picked me up and my Gran was at my house, that's when tom (that's my eldest brother) gave me the letter from my mum that she left home and left me in tears. it took me days to get over my pain and the sorrows I'd had after a while in 2010 I think it was that year. She met Mike (my step dad) and my mum phoned my dad that she found someone. before my brothers and I return home my Dad did not want my mum and my Uncle and my Gran in this house again. Yesterday my uncle helped me getting some more Christmas decorations from Wilkinson when he left my dad had a go at me for letting my uncle in the house and I felt really sad and I'd cried today that I have carried this pain for far too long. I just wish my dad just let go of the past and move on but he just can't and it is driving me into depression. if this keeps carrying on I don't know how much more I can take it. It feels like I am living in a mad house and I am thinking of moving out of this house so I can have a normal life of my own.
but it doesn't mean I'm not coming back on here I'll still be on here on the DA it's just I need to be happy and be free from my pain.
I hope you guys understand what I am going through